Last year when I posted about Tisha B'av I was writing frequently and it felt weird to post about Tisha B'av, a Jewish national day of mourning, since it wasn't in line with the rest of my topics, but it still felt relevant and real, so I did. This year, after not blogging for a … Continue reading Tisha B’av: Holding Space for Grief
Tag: grieving
Stumbling Through
I wake up everyday with this sort of amnesia. Thoughts running through my mind. To-do lists draped across my heart. I am bewildered, beset by concerns. It’s not as if I have conquered my previous 35 years of life’s challenges-—some minor, some more severe. That track record is nowhere to be found. And so, every … Continue reading Stumbling Through
Squeezing the Life out of the Lemon
This afternoon I was making breaded chicken. Cooking more elaborate recipes is a new coping mechanism developed by pandemic-related stress. Yes, breaded chicken is fancy in my book. I also first made challah last spring, also related to being stuck indoors and needing a pandemic-friendly outlet, as well as a toddler-friendly activity for my daughter. … Continue reading Squeezing the Life out of the Lemon
When Past and Present Collide
I had a dream last night which featured characters from my current life in Atlanta merged with those from my childhood. The Atlanta doctor who delivered my daughter 4 years ago had a house that was a remodeled version of a notable landmark on my childhood bus route in Westchester, NY. There was a last-minute … Continue reading When Past and Present Collide
Father’s 80th B-Day
Would be today. But he passed away suddenly in 2006, three weeks shy of his 65th birthday. Would he have been the avid fitness guru and health nut today that he was when G-d suddenly snatched him from us? Would he have aged and slowed down by now? I’ve always been grateful he didn’t suffer … Continue reading Father’s 80th B-Day
15 Years Ago Today, My Dad
My dad died 15 years ago today. 5 days prior was when I got the call from my mom that he was taken to the Neuro-ICU and the following day, instead of taking my bio midterm I was in the hospital with family discussing how my father had suddenly lost consciousness and incurred a brain … Continue reading 15 Years Ago Today, My Dad
Holding Space
When you wake up in the wee hours of the morning with memories of your father doing laundry and/or watching CNN at 3 amWhen your 3 yo daughter cries to you the previous day she doesn’t want to go to school When you cuddle her so tight And you can tell afterwards that helped her … Continue reading Holding Space
Broken Post Breakup
Wash you outta my hairShow you I don’t care Bathe myself in someone elseSo I don’t know your there
So, Goodbye
Give too much in the beginning My world is great, my head is spinning Things begin to slow down thoA frown appears to express woe Have I kissed another frog?Am I seeing clearly? Or thru smog?I felt I meant so much to himBut now he treats me on a whimHe saw me and still talked … Continue reading So, Goodbye
Today is Tu B’Av aka Jewish Valentine’s Day
Today is Tu B'Av in the Jewish calendar. It's kind of like a Jewish Valentine's Day. But different. One, cuz it's not very well-known. Two, cuz it's entirely differently. See Wikipedia page here. How apropos hat we are currently in a theme on my blog of relationships! (Not planned, I promise!) Ok, well today, I … Continue reading Today is Tu B’Av aka Jewish Valentine’s Day
Mindful Nuggets 