Watching movies takes me out my body and into the character I’m watching whose life is edited and caricatured and doesn’t face actual problems or frustrations. Not that I’m a pro at being in my body and feeling my emotions as it is. Thus why I take mindfulness courses. Speaking of, I really need to … Continue reading Mindful Musings: Return from Winter Break
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Martyrdom and Motherhood
We may think that we are helping our kids by eating the burnt toast and saving the good stuff for them. But kids model our behavior, so in fact we are harming them. For they see us eat the burnt toast and learn that when one grows up one eats burnt toast. So, let’s change … Continue reading Martyrdom and Motherhood
Modeling Mom
I learned anxiety from the same person who taught me life and love; shimmying and being in awe of nature. It’s interesting how visceral our parents’ impact on us can be. I recently watched “You” on Netflix. Certainly put my own life in perspective. My role models. The role model I am for my own … Continue reading Modeling Mom
To My Parents on Their Anniversary
9/2 - My Parent’s Would-Be 37th AnniversaryWishing my mom continued health and successWishing my dad continued peace and eternal rest (1941-2006)…………. A Poem To the people who brought me lifeTo the people who watered me as a tiny sapling—tirelessly, endlessly, till I knew how to stand on my ownTo the people who guarded me from … Continue reading To My Parents on Their Anniversary
Mama Needs Space
Early this morning the smoke detector went off. Yada yada yada. My daughter did wake up. Which meant my me-time in the wee hours of the morning was taken away. Being that I am currently processing 30 years of trauma and personal growth and evolution, I kinda need my me-time—now more than ever! She refused … Continue reading Mama Needs Space
Mother’s Day 2021
As humans we are constantly evolving. Often change is so minuscule, so incremental, that we do not notice it. When I was pregnant with my daughter 4 years ago, I kept bracing myself for the evolution that would come when I became a mother. As if my self-expression would go away. I would no longer … Continue reading Mother’s Day 2021
Mother’s Prose, Child’s Pose
As I stretched my back in child's pose this morning, I felt a yearning to stay in the safety of this shell for the whole day, even the whole week. This wasn't the first time I've felt that during child's pose: feeling closed off and protected from the world. Could I just stay here? Could … Continue reading Mother’s Prose, Child’s Pose
Behind the Brushstrokes
If I could paint, I would paint an abstract red and black painting right now. It would hold (some of) my pain, my fears. There are times when I feel like painting or drawing to express my emotions. Not that I actually want to go out, buy the paint, and watch a video on how … Continue reading Behind the Brushstrokes
Does G-d Read My Blog?
In recent weeks I've written about missing the predictability of a desk job. How, as a full-time mom and a full-time preschool teacher, I yearned to be back sitting at a computer just getting things done. Well a couple weeks ago I received an opportunity to work for someone remotely and get paid for it. … Continue reading Does G-d Read My Blog?
A Photoshopped World, A Tormented Soul
This morning my mom made an innocent comment that the way my daughter was wearing her hair made her look like Audrey Hepburn. I felt uncomfortable with this, because growing up and to this day I struggle with social comparison, including with celebrities. I still remember learning in my late teens that magazines are photoshopped. … Continue reading A Photoshopped World, A Tormented Soul
Mindful Nuggets 