Am I raising a humanoid? Or am I just being paranoid? My kid is stuck on TV— Is that supposed to bring me glee?
As I stretched my back in child's pose this morning, I felt a yearning to stay in the safety of this shell for the whole day, even the whole week. This wasn't the first time I've felt that during child's pose: feeling closed off and protected from the world. Could I just stay here? Could … Continue reading Mother’s Prose, Child’s Pose
If I could paint, I would paint an abstract red and black painting right now. It would hold (some of) my pain, my fears. There are times when I feel like painting or drawing to express my emotions. Not that I actually want to go out, buy the paint, and watch a video on how … Continue reading Behind the Brushstrokes
When we started social distancing last week, I was confused. We decided on no playdates, but neighborhood walks seemed okay. We kept our distance when speaking to people, even my toddler daughter did. There was one time though that as we were chatting, a child picked up a bug, which my daughter soon after picked … Continue reading Differentiating Between My Inner Child and My Actual Child
I was blessed to spend a week visiting my family over winter break. I'm going back to my teaching job this Thursday, but still "off" these past few days. Being "off" doesn't have the same meaning it did a few years ago. I still have to take care of my toddler daughter and I still … Continue reading Vacation: An Opportunity for Fresh Perspectives
This morning I had a stomach ache. My body tends to express stress in this way. And the past few weeks have been full of emotions—conscious and repressed ones—so my hurting tummy is no surprise. I had a tummy ache, but not only did I still have to go to work—as I'm used to as … Continue reading A Mommy’s Tummy Ache is Different
The Jewish prayer book is called a siddur. I learned the Jewish prayers in religious day school growing up, and recited them religiously (pun intended) through my mid-twenties. Then life started to get more complicated. In grad school I remember the tension I felt about having to rush through my morning prayers to get to … Continue reading Back to the Basics: the Prayer Book
Before I was a mom, if I spent my relaxation time editing my resume or applying to jobs, I would be angry at myself for missing out on relaxing. I should have danced or did yoga, or something else. But as a mom, free time is a commodity and taking painstaking care to edit my … Continue reading Free Time and Mommyhood
Previously I blogged about reducing my hours at my preschool job and wondering what I would end up doing instead. My intention was to have more downtime: for myself, and my toddler daughter too. And I do—that is, when I'm not training to become a water safety instructor in the evening. I guess I'm not … Continue reading My Current Work-Momlife Balance
Toddlers change nearly every day. They also change their minds every minute. This is a reminder for me to live in the present moment rather than the projections in my head of what I expect or wish to happen. Children in general are fully focused on what they are doing—they are masters of mindfulness!