Mornings Are Mine

Last week, I blogged about my early mornings, as well as my self-expression and creative outlets. Truth is, my greatest creativity comes in the early morning!

The first time I was introduced to the concept of waking up at 5 am was when I read Don’t Sweat the Small Stuff… by Richard Carlson, PhD. I was living in my twenties with roommates in Manhattan. Actually, the roommate whose bookshelf I was at the time perusing was from ATL. Which is where I currently live, as of 4 years ago. That’s cool! She also was the roommate who once said to me, “Gila, you are happy even just for a lovely, sunny day!” This was in response to my looking out the window and exclaiming joyfully that it was sunny outside. (It’s not that I am a pro at appreciating all the small things in life, but I happen to love love love sunny weather!…Not the skin damage part or the hot weather that tends one toward dehydration—but the way the sun shines upon me and invigorates my soul!

Who wouldn’t love that?

Anyway, TANGENT.

I like stream of consciousness writing, it’s kinda my thing. But too many tangents? Uh-uh! You lose the direction of the message!

And the message/lesson I learned is as follows:

I’ve discussed the emotional tumult I’ve experienced over the years, which for me, manifested in the area of dating. Really it was all a conversation between me and myself, but myself was represented by the guy I was dating. I didn’t respect myself. I had a lot of self-doubt. So the guys I dated reflected that energy back to me.

Healing these wounded parts of me is a life-long journey. And it’s not like the wounds were even first caused by the dating situations themselves. Rather, they were there prior and beckoned to be played out in the dating experiences I had.

Waking up early in the morning and being creative is very healing for me.

It’s like that line from Part of Me by Katy Perry:

This is the part of me
That you’re never gonna ever take away from me, no

Thank you blogosphere for joining me on this journey.

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