Dear Inner Critic,Sorry I’m not always perfectBut I’m not the shmuck you paint me asI am strong I am braveI have survived a lot of shitRemember that time my cousin got killed by a fuckin’ volcano?Or how about that time my dad suddenly collapsed and went unconscious and I never got to speak to him … Continue reading Dear Inner Critic
Some things move fast in life—like my car, or the internet. The internet also exposes me to other people’s lives and makes me wonder to the tune of the John Mayer song, “Am I living it right?” For example, I’d love to be a well-known author some day. Years ago, most people’s works became more … Continue reading Immediate Gratification and the Meaning of Life
Even visual art is movement. Looking at the trees with their colorful leaves glistening under the light of the sun, I am filled with awe. I stop dead in my tracks. I wonder, is this what painter’s feel? A desire to capture nature’s beauty? To commune with it deeply as they “recreate” it on paper? … Continue reading Art as Movement
Some people find shelter in religion. A place of safety from the big bad world. Comfort from the chaos. But I find it suffocating. To different degrees, at different points in my life. In the beginning, I didn't even realize consciously how difficult it made my life. One could say, I would have struggled with … Continue reading Religion is an Opiate?
Unrequited Care You didn't know I was there I stood in the corner and watched Just stared All the things I wish I did All the thoughts I all but hid You thought I was nice But I was just a pleaser You thought I was loyal But I was really a non-believer No faith … Continue reading Stepping Toward Myself
Tonight into tomorrow will mark 15 years after my father’s sudden passing. Even before he passed away, my whole life I struggled with low self-esteem. But I covered it up with good grades and people pleasing. Well, the illusion of control shattered in my senior year of college when I got the call from my … Continue reading Be YOU
When I chase after my mind, my heart races. Writing lists is helpful but also can be overwhelming when lists get long and disorganized and making calendar tables is way more helpful and efficient. I used to keep up with life in a linear way. But it always stressed me out. And then when my … Continue reading Mindful Musings
My parents gave me the ingredients. But I choose at what temp and for how long it cooks.
I love using my Libra-inspired love of symmetry to edit the photos and videos that I make. My whole life, I’ve used this skill AGAINST myself. Perfectionism. Orthorexia. Fear of not fitting in. Now I’m channeling my gifts to produce beauty; instead of subjugating beauty to harsh judgment. I’m on the road the healing, y’all.
They say bilingual children start speaking later but when they do, they speak with fuller, richer language. Or similarly how quiet toddlers that speak later at times start off speaking with full sentences. I feel like I am multilingual in a sense. I speak academic, I speak 9-5 job life. But I also speak spirituality … Continue reading Multilingual Soul Speak