My dad died 15 years ago today. 5 days prior was when I got the call from my mom that he was taken to the Neuro-ICU and the following day, instead of taking my bio midterm I was in the hospital with family discussing how my father had suddenly lost consciousness and incurred a brain … Continue reading 15 Years Ago Today, My Dad
Tag: personal growth
Wondering About Stevie Wonder
Oh my Gosh. When my Mom listened to Stevie Wonder in the car, she pictured him as his younger self since his Talking Book album came out in 1972. But I just pictured him as his age on the music awards shows I watched in the 90s and early 2000s. I guess that goes for … Continue reading Wondering About Stevie Wonder
Dancing My Woes Away
Ok, y’all. I’ve always felt bad for not having taken dance lessons as a kid. I did some sports and a hell of a lot of Jewish studies. I’ve always regretted not dancing because I love the feeling of flying in the air (there was that one year of gymnastics in 3rd grade and while … Continue reading Dancing My Woes Away
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We live in an AgeWhen our parents’ undiagnosed Sh**Is coming to LightSo Do what’s RightAnd Go to Therapy Dude, you thinks it’s fun going to therapy these past 15 years? I feel like I’ve been through the ringer! Personal growth hurts. Like those growing pains I had in my legs as a kid. But it … Continue reading Untitled
Stepping Toward Myself
Unrequited Care You didn't know I was there I stood in the corner and watched Just stared All the things I wish I did All the thoughts I all but hid You thought I was nice But I was just a pleaser You thought I was loyal But I was really a non-believer No faith … Continue reading Stepping Toward Myself
Life Lies, Truth Lies
Life is much harder than it looksThey don’t teach you this in the books I’m starting to think that they are crooks Cuz I’ve looked in every corner, in every nook And never have I found something that so deeply shook My very essence, my very reality The secret of living, of embracing me For … Continue reading Life Lies, Truth Lies
Daddy’s Rock Star: My Dad, My Rock
At my bat mitzvah party, before I gave my speech, my dad introduced me and ended by telling me to ‘speak into the microphone like a rock star.” His demeanor was humble and kind always. And the fact that he referenced rock was, to be honest, kinda a surprise. He was after all, a huge … Continue reading Daddy’s Rock Star: My Dad, My Rock
Be YOU
Tonight into tomorrow will mark 15 years after my father’s sudden passing. Even before he passed away, my whole life I struggled with low self-esteem. But I covered it up with good grades and people pleasing. Well, the illusion of control shattered in my senior year of college when I got the call from my … Continue reading Be YOU
Mindful Musings
When I chase after my mind, my heart races. Writing lists is helpful but also can be overwhelming when lists get long and disorganized and making calendar tables is way more helpful and efficient. I used to keep up with life in a linear way. But it always stressed me out. And then when my … Continue reading Mindful Musings
Happy 36th to Me—Authenticity Breeds Felicity
I know my life experiences inform my writing. The sudden passing of my father in 2006, my cousin's tragic death 6 years prior. But I think there is something else to it as well. My whole life I have been authentic. I never succumbed to peer pressure in high school. For most of college, I … Continue reading Happy 36th to Me—Authenticity Breeds Felicity
