Yesterday was a religious fast day. Fasting is supposed to spur repentance but my focus was getting through it (i.e. successfully not eating or drinking despite the cravings, weakness, etc.). Since I’m nursing and it was a minor fast, I gave myself permission to break the fast midday. My rabbi said it was fine. My … Continue reading What We Tell Ourselves Matters
Tag: self-awareness
Less Self-Conscious About Being Self-Conscious
When I took my Pilates certification course, I was 20 years old. I was the second youngest of the 30 women there, but that had little to do with my anxiety when I got assessed. I was always a self-conscious person. Constantly second-guessing myself, an incessant voice in my head telling me what I was … Continue reading Less Self-Conscious About Being Self-Conscious
Self-Acceptance: Seeing Yourself in a Realistic Light
Continuing thoughts from last Friday's post, another reason why I'm not great with constructive criticism is that I always feel like I am getting graded. I was always concerned about my grades in school. I wasn't the best in all the subjects, but I had straight As in math/science/Jewish classes which upped my GPA from … Continue reading Self-Acceptance: Seeing Yourself in a Realistic Light
Creative Writing Is My Jam
One of the things I like about working in a preschool is being able to use my communication and writings skills. In particular, I enjoy writing a weekly synopsis for the parents of what we did each week. Today, it was suggested that I look over another teacher's weekly summary. I took this very personally. … Continue reading Creative Writing Is My Jam
Fancy Bathroom, Healthy Self
I keep happening upon renovated bathrooms: at the local apartment complex, at the local synagogue. I didn’t think the previous bathrooms were so bad. "Why did they spend the money to redo them?" I initially thought. But after using them, I realized there is something uplifting about using a fancier, finer ladies' room. It elevates … Continue reading Fancy Bathroom, Healthy Self
Evaluating Early Signs of Perfectionism
I corrected a misspelling in my blog draft before exiting. Why? Somewhere deep down I had the paranoid thought that someone might see it and judge me for it. First of all, no one is going to see a draft. Secondly, it is a draft, so even if they could see it, they would understand. … Continue reading Evaluating Early Signs of Perfectionism
A Lesson on Self-Regulation and Sensory Processing
Recently the preschool where I work gave a talk on sensory processing and self-regulation. I still have a lot to learn about these topics as it relates to preschoolers—as well as, as it relates to me! These lessons are giving me extra insight and self-awareness. A greater vocabulary with which to understand my own psyche … Continue reading A Lesson on Self-Regulation and Sensory Processing
Paying Bills
Paying bills was always a tedious time of the weekend in my home growing up. So I feel guilty when I go online and it is so much more effortless a task (other than the working to pay said bills part). I always had this image of myself struggling with the same serious adulthood task … Continue reading Paying Bills
Building Things Up in My Head
Previously, I posted about my anxiety over seeing my relatives back home and feeling judged for being on a different path than I used to be. Well, as things usually are, it ended up being way better than I expected. One relative was excited to hear about all my new ventures. One could tell that … Continue reading Building Things Up in My Head
Cell Phone Cleanse
This past week I had a wake up call with regards to my cell phone usage. First my 14 month old daughter needed me while I was responding to an "urgent" text. Then, later that evening, I went on Facebook to post some photos of said precious daughter and it led to a moment of … Continue reading Cell Phone Cleanse
Mindful Nuggets 