Tonight into tomorrow will mark 15 years after my father’s sudden passing. Even before he passed away, my whole life I struggled with low self-esteem. But I covered it up with good grades and people pleasing. Well, the illusion of control shattered in my senior year of college when I got the call from my … Continue reading Be YOU
Tag: self-acceptance
Morning Musing on Mamas and Papas
My parents gave me the ingredients. But I choose at what temp and for how long it cooks.
I See You
I see your scarsI see your errors I see your fears I see your tremors You are more than the sum of your partsYou are more than the endless fragmentations of your broken heart When you feel broken, I see you, wholeWhen shackled to your bodyI see your soul
Self-Actualization Realization
What does it mean that I am self-actualizing and crystallizing my thoughts on self-love while still deep down sabotaging myself at the core and reliving my worst unhealthy patterns. I guess I’ve evolved to a new level. I guess I’m at a new vantage point. I guess I’m challenging myself in new ways. I really … Continue reading Self-Actualization Realization
Stand Up Comedy Tonight
I’m returning to Stand Up Comedy open mic tonight after a 7-year hiatus. Even if I do end up sucking (as basically all beginners do in the beginning!)... Prepping for it And challenging myself And growing And telling my friends about it And building my brand And blogging about it— Cuz it’s a topic and … Continue reading Stand Up Comedy Tonight
You Got This!
“Ok, let’s go somewhere else.” Did that group of four women just leave the area at the very moment I arrived? Holy, shit! My worst fear has finally manifested! And it only took 35 damn years. Of course, my first reaction was to second guess my recent actions...Was it the F bomb I dropped a … Continue reading You Got This!
Part 2 – The Antidote
What is an antidote to forcing food down or other methods of numbing emotions? Self-forgiveness Self-compassion Acceptance of what is Instead of pushing it down And/or running away from it Carrying oneself with dignity and self-love Even when times are hard On Shabbat, G-d invites us to step away from all the distractions. I used … Continue reading Part 2 – The Antidote
So, Goodbye
Give too much in the beginning My world is great, my head is spinning Things begin to slow down thoA frown appears to express woe Have I kissed another frog?Am I seeing clearly? Or thru smog?I felt I meant so much to himBut now he treats me on a whimHe saw me and still talked … Continue reading So, Goodbye
Force to Be Reckoned With (A Rap)
Hey It's meGive me a hollaNo I don't want your mother-fuckin dollaMaybe I listen to too much SaweetieMaybe all along I've really been a meanieMaybe I was stupid, Maybe I was lameFor letting this go on for so longThis maddening gameWell now I'm outAnd my mind is clearI'm no longer investing in youMy dearI've disentangled, … Continue reading Force to Be Reckoned With (A Rap)
Ugly Duck Syndrome
Growing up I was the kid who everyone liked but didn’t necessarily invite to their parties. I wasn’t an outcast, but I wasn’t an incast either. I had my couple close friends and we were happy but I always wanted wished to be more part of the social world surrounding me. Like I said in … Continue reading Ugly Duck Syndrome
Mindful Nuggets 