First of all, my hubby is the kindest. I'm so blessed to have found him. He has such a sweet heart and is so sensitive. Reminded me of my dad. Does he criticize me more than my dad? Ya! But what can we do. We've been living together for 6 years and raising a kid … Continue reading I Didn’t Always Go for Assholes
There is a teaching I learned first in the name of the Ba'al Shem Tov. Then years later I heard it again in the name of another teacher/master of a different faith. The teaching goes like this: When we see faults in others, it is really our own faults we are seeing in them. Like, … Continue reading In Others, We See Ourselves
In the summer of 2014, when I decided to stop chasing men and start chasing my dreams of becoming a mom, I committed myself to being the most reliable professional I could be, which for me meant making sure I consistently got to work promptly. My first nutrition job after grad school was in a … Continue reading My Kid, My Calling
You shot a dart Through my heart And now I bleed But my blood isn't the viscosity That it seems It's thicker And less quicker It's multi-colored dark Not red alone Ever since you hung up the phone I feel my entire future blown I'm downtrodden, sad Full of despair The things I used to … Continue reading I Bleed Melted Crayons
“Ok, let’s go somewhere else.” Did that group of four women just leave the area at the very moment I arrived? Holy, shit! My worst fear has finally manifested! And it only took 35 damn years. Of course, my first reaction was to second guess my recent actions...Was it the F bomb I dropped a … Continue reading You Got This!
When the Force (see previous post) finds her lifelong mate... Deep inside, there’s something tender Can’t see it—only feel it It’s only for me and Gd And for the one who proves worthy I will share my deepest self, My most vulnerable inner part Because you promised me That we would never ever part You … Continue reading Soft Spot
Wash you outta my hairShow you I don’t care Bathe myself in someone elseSo I don’t know your there
I challenge I had when dating was that whenever I would share my writings with the guy, I felt closer to them. Even if it turned out they didn't read it in the end, I immediately felt close just by merely sending it there way. Why did I connect to easily? Was my soul reaching … Continue reading Projected Intimacy
I texted you, you weren't thereSo I'm the only one who caresI'm left alone meandering, helplessPandering for attention, lovelessBut not if I decide to close heartTo pretend I didn't care from the startWhat's that? You answered me?But I was highHigh on lifeNot just trying to get byRich with experiences and self-loveIn a pool, with glitter, … Continue reading Waiting for Whom?
Hey It's meGive me a hollaNo I don't want your mother-fuckin dollaMaybe I listen to too much SaweetieMaybe all along I've really been a meanieMaybe I was stupid, Maybe I was lameFor letting this go on for so longThis maddening gameWell now I'm outAnd my mind is clearI'm no longer investing in youMy dearI've disentangled, … Continue reading Force to Be Reckoned With (A Rap)