First of all, my hubby is the kindest. I'm so blessed to have found him. He has such a sweet heart and is so sensitive. Reminded me of my dad. Does he criticize me more than my dad? Ya! But what can we do. We've been living together for 6 years and raising a kid … Continue reading I Didn’t Always Go for Assholes
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In Others, We See Ourselves
There is a teaching I learned first in the name of the Ba'al Shem Tov. Then years later I heard it again in the name of another teacher/master of a different faith. The teaching goes like this: When we see faults in others, it is really our own faults we are seeing in them. Like, … Continue reading In Others, We See Ourselves
My Kid, My Calling
In the summer of 2014, when I decided to stop chasing men and start chasing my dreams of becoming a mom, I committed myself to being the most reliable professional I could be, which for me meant making sure I consistently got to work promptly. My first nutrition job after grad school was in a … Continue reading My Kid, My Calling
I Bleed Melted Crayons
You shot a dart Through my heart And now I bleed But my blood isn't the viscosity That it seems It's thicker And less quicker It's multi-colored dark Not red alone Ever since you hung up the phone I feel my entire future blown I'm downtrodden, sad Full of despair The things I used to … Continue reading I Bleed Melted Crayons
You Got This!
“Ok, let’s go somewhere else.” Did that group of four women just leave the area at the very moment I arrived? Holy, shit! My worst fear has finally manifested! And it only took 35 damn years. Of course, my first reaction was to second guess my recent actions...Was it the F bomb I dropped a … Continue reading You Got This!
Soft Spot
When the Force (see previous post) finds her lifelong mate... Deep inside, there’s something tender Can’t see it—only feel it It’s only for me and Gd And for the one who proves worthy I will share my deepest self, My most vulnerable inner part Because you promised me That we would never ever part You … Continue reading Soft Spot
Broken Post Breakup
Wash you outta my hairShow you I don’t care Bathe myself in someone elseSo I don’t know your there
So, Goodbye
Give too much in the beginning My world is great, my head is spinning Things begin to slow down thoA frown appears to express woe Have I kissed another frog?Am I seeing clearly? Or thru smog?I felt I meant so much to himBut now he treats me on a whimHe saw me and still talked … Continue reading So, Goodbye
Projected Intimacy
I challenge I had when dating was that whenever I would share my writings with the guy, I felt closer to them. Even if it turned out they didn't read it in the end, I immediately felt close just by merely sending it there way. Why did I connect to easily? Was my soul reaching … Continue reading Projected Intimacy
Will We
Will we still sense each other when our love is extinguished Will the scent of our love take time to diminish Between lust and love it’s hard to distinguish Maybe the love was real but it wasn’t enough Maybe the love was fake and to that I say “Tough”Cuz I’m broken without you as I … Continue reading Will We
Mindful Nuggets 