What does it mean that I am self-actualizing and crystallizing my thoughts on self-love while still deep down sabotaging myself at the core and reliving my worst unhealthy patterns. I guess I’ve evolved to a new level. I guess I’m at a new vantage point. I guess I’m challenging myself in new ways. I really … Continue reading Self-Actualization Realization
Tag: self-esteem
Boldly Beautiful
How Fucked up is this?... I remember being intimated by the pretty, sophisticated girls in middle school years in sleep away camp. (I went to a mad jappy one, yayyyyyyyy.) But I also remember, more faintly, around that time, having thoughts about how if I really look good, people will think I look too good. … Continue reading Boldly Beautiful
Stand Up Comedy Tonight
I’m returning to Stand Up Comedy open mic tonight after a 7-year hiatus. Even if I do end up sucking (as basically all beginners do in the beginning!)... Prepping for it And challenging myself And growing And telling my friends about it And building my brand And blogging about it— Cuz it’s a topic and … Continue reading Stand Up Comedy Tonight
I’m a Cool Cat
As I process a lot of intense emotion and emotional wounds in recent weeks, I am finding myself to be more protective of my kitty. On the one hand, I want to let her out to play freely, to frolic in the beautiful nature. On the other hand, I want to put her in a … Continue reading I’m a Cool Cat
You Got This!
“Ok, let’s go somewhere else.” Did that group of four women just leave the area at the very moment I arrived? Holy, shit! My worst fear has finally manifested! And it only took 35 damn years. Of course, my first reaction was to second guess my recent actions...Was it the F bomb I dropped a … Continue reading You Got This!
So, Goodbye
Give too much in the beginning My world is great, my head is spinning Things begin to slow down thoA frown appears to express woe Have I kissed another frog?Am I seeing clearly? Or thru smog?I felt I meant so much to himBut now he treats me on a whimHe saw me and still talked … Continue reading So, Goodbye
Projected Intimacy
A challenge I had when dating was that whenever I would share my writings with the guy, I felt closer to them. Even if it turned out they didn't read it in the end, I immediately felt close just by merely sending it there way. Why did I connect to easily? Was my soul reaching … Continue reading Projected Intimacy
Waiting for Whom?
I texted you, you weren't thereSo I'm the only one who caresI'm left alone meandering, helplessPandering for attention, lovelessBut not if I decide to close heartTo pretend I didn't care from the startWhat's that? You answered me?But I was highHigh on lifeNot just trying to get byRich with experiences and self-loveIn a pool, with glitter, … Continue reading Waiting for Whom?
Force to Be Reckoned With (A Rap)
Hey It's meGive me a hollaNo I don't want your mother-fuckin dollaMaybe I listen to too much SaweetieMaybe all along I've really been a meanieMaybe I was stupid, Maybe I was lameFor letting this go on for so longThis maddening gameWell now I'm outAnd my mind is clearI'm no longer investing in youMy dearI've disentangled, … Continue reading Force to Be Reckoned With (A Rap)
I am a Sun, not a Moon!
If you're just tuning in… Hi!!!!! Thanks for stopping by! I hope you have a good day! Also, let me catch you up on my most recent theme... I've decided for the trillionth time to rehash the dating debacles of my twenties. Maybe decided isn't the right word. More like, was called to. And, as … Continue reading I am a Sun, not a Moon!
Mindful Nuggets 