“Ok, let’s go somewhere else.” Did that group of four women just leave the area at the very moment I arrived? Holy, shit! My worst fear has finally manifested! And it only took 35 damn years. Of course, my first reaction was to second guess my recent actions...Was it the F bomb I dropped a … Continue reading You Got This!
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Beyoncé Appeal
I love how performers flirt with their audience. Like literally, 'you can look, don't touch' (Best Friend - Saweetie ft. Doja Cat lyrics—their performances are too strippery for my taste, but that's a great line.) I've always wanted to be a performer. I've also always wanted people to pay attention to me. The problem is, … Continue reading Beyoncé Appeal
Waiting for Whom?
I texted you, you weren't thereSo I'm the only one who caresI'm left alone meandering, helplessPandering for attention, lovelessBut not if I decide to close heartTo pretend I didn't care from the startWhat's that? You answered me?But I was highHigh on lifeNot just trying to get byRich with experiences and self-loveIn a pool, with glitter, … Continue reading Waiting for Whom?
Back Together Again; Humpty Dumping
You met me when I was lowWaited to see how far I’d goPushed me when I was moving too slowAccording to YouI was broken thenConfused and lostWasn’t my own bossLeaned on others like they were my crossIt took me a while But I picked myself upI learned and I grew To trust my inner gut … Continue reading Back Together Again; Humpty Dumping
Greater Self-Awareness in Stepping Back
I watched a video about low self-esteem recently by psychiatrist Rabbi Dr. Abraham Twerski and it made me realize how my low self-esteem is for sure a real thing—even if there's no official diagnosis for it. And I've been more aware recently of how much I need external validation to fill the internal void inside … Continue reading Greater Self-Awareness in Stepping Back
A Few Words Provide Big Encouragement
In my book The Roadmap Ends Here: Entering Adulthood, I have an essay entitled, "Adulthood: Where's the Confetti?" where I discuss my challenge with not receiving positive feedback and adulation like I did when I was a student. I continue to struggle with this, yearning for praise and positive feedback for what I do in … Continue reading A Few Words Provide Big Encouragement
Purim Messages of Personal Growth
Today is the Jewish holiday of Purim. Purim is a festive holiday as well as a creative one. People dress up (I joke it is Jewish Halloween, but it’s really quite different), gather for a big meal, distribute goody bags to their neighbors, and of course the story of Purim is read from the Megillah … Continue reading Purim Messages of Personal Growth
Losing Yourself in a Relationship, Losing Yourself in Your Work
As I began my early morning dive into my remote side job, I reminded myself that when this is over I will still be me, and I will have to work toward a calmer, more relaxed inner state. This is a short-term project, one that I have committed a lot of energy, attention, and care … Continue reading Losing Yourself in a Relationship, Losing Yourself in Your Work
What We Tell Ourselves Matters
Yesterday was a religious fast day. Fasting is supposed to spur repentance but my focus was getting through it (i.e. successfully not eating or drinking despite the cravings, weakness, etc.). Since I’m nursing and it was a minor fast, I gave myself permission to break the fast midday. My rabbi said it was fine. My … Continue reading What We Tell Ourselves Matters
A Photoshopped World, A Tormented Soul
This morning my mom made an innocent comment that the way my daughter was wearing her hair made her look like Audrey Hepburn. I felt uncomfortable with this, because growing up and to this day I struggle with social comparison, including with celebrities. I still remember learning in my late teens that magazines are photoshopped. … Continue reading A Photoshopped World, A Tormented Soul
Mindful Nuggets 