Early voting Covid tests Working mama With no rest Closer to the edge But not of glory Stress, pressure, fear Tells a different story Hasn't my week been hard enough On call Sunday evening was so tough Indulged my kid when I got home Slept crappily that night again, like a drone— Got up the next … Continue reading Early Voting, Covid Tests
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UnSettled
What can go wrong? Everything All the questions marks turn over Start pointing fingers at me Their hooks grab me by the neck I can't breathe Doubt and failure is all I see Do you follow me? Of course you don't There's only room in this tunnel for one Living life with my brain is the … Continue reading UnSettled
MeTube
I shouldn't be on my computer right now. I also shouldn't be using the word "should." So, where does that leave me?... It's currently 3:45 am Eastern Standard Time (Daylight?—whatever). Screen time in the middle of the night is not an ideal tool for falling back to sleep—instead of resting the mind, it actually jolts … Continue reading MeTube
Ballroom Dancing: Lead and Follow
As I referenced in my previous post my job future is up in the air. This morning I thought about how I really have to stop myself from thinking about the future. I can't project what will happen, envision my life in months from now. I have to take things one week at a time, … Continue reading Ballroom Dancing: Lead and Follow
“Limited Choices is Better than Endless Choices”
To help my aforementioned anxiety, I started to break down my large goals into smaller ones. For example, instead of “reformat all 25 handouts for 5 sessions.” I wrote, “make an outline of handout titles; then reformat handouts from one session per day.” I felt much better after committing to this since it was much … Continue reading “Limited Choices is Better than Endless Choices”
Packing So Much Into a Minute; Missing the Moment
I tried to pack in as many billable minutes as possible before I ordered my ride to my scheduled doctor’s appointment. I’ve always been one to pack too much into the moment. This remote job really brings it out in me. What a mess. Here’s the thing. Yes, I might get another 5 minutes of … Continue reading Packing So Much Into a Minute; Missing the Moment
Are You Trying to Control Something?
Are you trying to control something? Stop! I made up this mantra this morning, when I realized how much tension I was holding in my body. I had done something that I thought bothered my co-worker and my fear of her judging me led me to judge myself. This led me to hold my breath, … Continue reading Are You Trying to Control Something?
Family Portrait: Taking Time Out to Pause
My mom and brother visited from out of town so my mom wanted to take a family portrait with all of us (mom, brother, husband, daughter and me). The only time we were all together was Tuesday morning. Tuesday afternoon I was off to a teacher training to kick off the new school year and … Continue reading Family Portrait: Taking Time Out to Pause
Fear Versus Anxiety: The Outdoors Reminds Us of Our Vulnerability
As I held my toddler daughter to my chest at the sound of thunder, I felt that visceral fear of the elements. We are so guarded in our homes, yet we have other fears in life. That visceral fear was refreshing—it is pure, evolutionarily programmed fear. Unlike the racing thoughts in my mind all the … Continue reading Fear Versus Anxiety: The Outdoors Reminds Us of Our Vulnerability
Sleep Promotes Inner Peace
Yesterday I blogged about my past two weeks of poor sleep. It's kind of a cycle: poor sleep leads to heightened anxiety which leads to poor sleep, etc. I was relieved when I woke up this morning that I felt refreshed. I had not woken up in the middle of the night as in previous … Continue reading Sleep Promotes Inner Peace
