Yesterday I locked my keys in the car while multi-tasking since that’s what you do when you work full time and are given short notice from your landlord that you have to move. After 2 hours of me and my husband (mostly my husband) trying to unlock the car door with a hanger, I accidentally … Continue reading Locked Out of Heaven
Tag: anxiety
Power of Now
Eckhart Tolle wrote a great book by this name. Thinking about the importance of staying in the moment. Often I anticipate the future and get anxious. But the truth is, when we arrive at that moment, things will be different than our projection of it. Because we bring our whole selves into it and that … Continue reading Power of Now
New Release: Pandemic Poetry
I'm excited to announce my new book Pandemic Poetry. It is a short book of poems that I wrote as the pandemic was starting through the present day. It focuses on feelings of loss and anxiety as well as hope and healing. I wanted to bring my experiences to life in these poems, but I … Continue reading New Release: Pandemic Poetry
Early Voting, Covid Tests
Early voting Covid tests Working mama With no rest Closer to the edge But not of glory Stress, pressure, fear Tells a different story Hasn't my week been hard enough On call Sunday evening was so tough Indulged my kid when I got home Slept crappily that night again, like a drone— Got up the next … Continue reading Early Voting, Covid Tests
UnSettled
What can go wrong? Everything All the questions marks turn over Start pointing fingers at me Their hooks grab me by the neck I can't breathe Doubt and failure is all I see Do you follow me? Of course you don't There's only room in this tunnel for one Living life with my brain is the … Continue reading UnSettled
MeTube
I shouldn't be on my computer right now. I also shouldn't be using the word "should." So, where does that leave me?... It's currently 3:45 am Eastern Standard Time (Daylight?—whatever). Screen time in the middle of the night is not an ideal tool for falling back to sleep—instead of resting the mind, it actually jolts … Continue reading MeTube
Ballroom Dancing: Lead and Follow
As I referenced in my previous post my job future is up in the air. This morning I thought about how I really have to stop myself from thinking about the future. I can't project what will happen, envision my life in months from now. I have to take things one week at a time, … Continue reading Ballroom Dancing: Lead and Follow
“Limited Choices is Better than Endless Choices”
To help my aforementioned anxiety, I started to break down my large goals into smaller ones. For example, instead of “reformat all 25 handouts for 5 sessions.” I wrote, “make an outline of handout titles; then reformat handouts from one session per day.” I felt much better after committing to this since it was much … Continue reading “Limited Choices is Better than Endless Choices”
Packing So Much Into a Minute; Missing the Moment
I tried to pack in as many billable minutes as possible before I ordered my ride to my scheduled doctor’s appointment. I’ve always been one to pack too much into the moment. This remote job really brings it out in me. What a mess. Here’s the thing. Yes, I might get another 5 minutes of … Continue reading Packing So Much Into a Minute; Missing the Moment
Are You Trying to Control Something?
Are you trying to control something? Stop! I made up this mantra this morning, when I realized how much tension I was holding in my body. I had done something that I thought bothered my co-worker and my fear of her judging me led me to judge myself. This led me to hold my breath, … Continue reading Are You Trying to Control Something?
