Recently I switched my work schedule from 5 days a week to 3 days a week. This gives me more mental rest, a day off from the treadmill of life—which this nutritionist/fitness instructor so poorly needs! With that extra reserve of energy, I not only have more time for self-care and reflection, but also for … Continue reading Investing in My Daughter
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Stepping Toward Myself
Unrequited Care You didn't know I was there I stood in the corner and watched Just stared All the things I wish I did All the thoughts I all but hid You thought I was nice But I was just a pleaser You thought I was loyal But I was really a non-believer No faith … Continue reading Stepping Toward Myself
Daddy’s Rock Star: My Dad, My Rock
At my bat mitzvah party, before I gave my speech, my dad introduced me and ended by telling me to ‘speak into the microphone like a rock star.” His demeanor was humble and kind always. And the fact that he referenced rock was, to be honest, kinda a surprise. He was after all, a huge … Continue reading Daddy’s Rock Star: My Dad, My Rock
Not This Time
Emptiness sets inFear of being left begins All the good feelsWhat’s the big deal It can be taken away in an instantI’m anything but invince– able I’m crying so hard insideBut my eyes, they stay dry No matter how much I tryI can’t kick the habit How do I feel safeHow can I win a … Continue reading Not This Time
In Others, We See Ourselves
There is a teaching I learned first in the name of the Ba'al Shem Tov. Then years later I heard it again in the name of another teacher/master of a different faith. The teaching goes like this: When we see faults in others, it is really our own faults we are seeing in them. Like, … Continue reading In Others, We See Ourselves
My Kid, My Calling
In the summer of 2014, when I decided to stop chasing men and start chasing my dreams of becoming a mom, I committed myself to being the most reliable professional I could be, which for me meant making sure I consistently got to work promptly. My first nutrition job after grad school was in a … Continue reading My Kid, My Calling
I Bleed Melted Crayons
You shot a dart Through my heart And now I bleed But my blood isn't the viscosity That it seems It's thicker And less quicker It's multi-colored dark Not red alone Ever since you hung up the phone I feel my entire future blown I'm downtrodden, sad Full of despair The things I used to … Continue reading I Bleed Melted Crayons
You Got This!
“Ok, let’s go somewhere else.” Did that group of four women just leave the area at the very moment I arrived? Holy, shit! My worst fear has finally manifested! And it only took 35 damn years. Of course, my first reaction was to second guess my recent actions...Was it the F bomb I dropped a … Continue reading You Got This!
Soft Spot
When the Force (see previous post) finds her lifelong mate... Deep inside, there’s something tender Can’t see it—only feel it It’s only for me and Gd And for the one who proves worthy I will share my deepest self, My most vulnerable inner part Because you promised me That we would never ever part You … Continue reading Soft Spot
So, Goodbye
Give too much in the beginning My world is great, my head is spinning Things begin to slow down thoA frown appears to express woe Have I kissed another frog?Am I seeing clearly? Or thru smog?I felt I meant so much to himBut now he treats me on a whimHe saw me and still talked … Continue reading So, Goodbye
Mindful Nuggets 